Surprised

I am now looking for words to get through with this entry, so help me God.

Yesterday, Sunday. A couple of us went to church to hear mass. The church was in Wisconsin, a state just along side illinois, it was almost a 2 hour drive or so i think. The ride was kinda long and boring mainly because we dont talk that much in the car.Blah, blah. After sometime, we eventually got to the destination. The Holy Hill.

There were so many people there so we ended up parking at the base and walk up-hill to get to the church. As we went up, we were greeted from people you were up and about. There were so many Filipinos too but we just walked not paying that much attention because everyone just minded their own business.

The short walk from the elevators to the main church was nothing but breathtaking. W-O-W! The view of Wisconsin from above was such a wonderful sight, it actually felt like im on top of the world, but that was just me.

We said our wishes and prayers then attended mass. It was the first mass I attended since I got here, and besides the place it was pretty much the same feel. Then the bewildering part happened. During communion as everyone lined up, it was already my turn. I looked up to the priest ready to receive the Eucharist, that's when I heard him say "Katawan ni Kristo". He spoke tagalog! It wouldnt be so weird if he was Filipino to begin with but no he was so white and american, now you see the shock? I actually thought I was hallucinating and just kept my mouth shut about it not until after the ceremony. I asked my brother about it but he said that he heard the priest say "Body of Christ". Aargh! Was i going crazy? I could've sworn that i heard otherwise. And I asked again, this time it was my aunt, to my relief she said that she heard the same thing. Oh was I relieved! For one I was not going insane, and second why does he know our language.

Before leaving the place, I eventually got the answer to my query. The priest said that their congregation(whatever that's called, sorry for not knowing) had a chapter in Davao and that he was once stationed in the Quezon province. Soo that was why. Thrilled as I was, we said "salamat" and he answered us with a smile "walang anuman".

Certified Biatch

Since I got here, which was just a couple of weeks back, I spend my monday nights in a nearby gym and play volleyball. Just a small gathering of our kind out to have some fun and play a good decent ball game. There around 20+ people who attend every monday, you can say its a nice way to mingle and meet new people knowing that im just new.

After a few games, i realized one thing, one crucial thing. I suck! as in I am no good at vball. Hey, at least im trying. Yes, i know how to play. I mean, when i was still in middle school I was actually part of the team, but that was way way back year 2000 or so, i think. The last time I played vball before this was way back freshman year in college. It got me thinking, do i suck because of lack of practice? or do i just suck period? Its kinda hard to gain new friends when you're the causing their defeat. Depressing!

Last monday while at the game, i learned that this bitch-of-a-teamate was talking shit about me. Well, it was basically because im no good for the team, thats what she thinks. I didnt snap and i remained calm. I didnt need her approval anyways, I was trying my best and i was doing my job.
Forgive me if im not good, but she was not some pro anyway. The nerve! It was supposed to be about unity but she's acting like she's all that, aargh. Irritating.

I wont mind her, i'll do my thing and she can do hers. The hell i care.

big 2-0!

Counting down 10 more days before i reach 20. The thought of adding another year to my life is sor of depressing. For one, i feel that im not doing much to satisfy my crave for excitement and adventure. Ambivalent, I want to take risk just to make things spontaneous but at the same time im afraid for the mayhem that it could bring to my life. Aargh. Gulo ko noh? hahaha

For the past 19 years of my lowly existence, i did accomplish a lot (or at least).I fell in love. I got dumped. I got cheated on (asshole).I met wonderful people. I gained new friends. Bonds of friendship were strenghtened. I fell in love again,and i blew it for some selfish reason.I finished 3 levels of Education. Weee! Elementary, High School, and College. Earning me a Bachelor of Science in Nursing Degree.I passed the Phil. Nurse's Licensure Exam. Now i can trully feel the joy of having RN as an appendage :) I won a National Debate Competition. I attended my first employment training. I moved back to the US. And is now a bum. haha. whats next for this 20 year-old eh?

blog-worthy?

I watched the movie Julie& Julia last night and boy did it make my mind twirl. It made me think, what can i do to make this blog colorful? hmm hard question.

Fact is I hardly even visit the site, like once in a blue moon. I don't even think that my blogs are blog worthy or if anyone reads my shit. You know what? f* that, i dont really care if anyone reads it. Way way back, when i was still in Highschool i used to love writing my heart out even just for petty reasons. Its a way of channeling emotions and stuff and boy! it works as in! It helped me get through some of my mind-boggling meltdowns. Now, I have this blog, which pretty much has the same purpose but hah! i cant even manage it properly.

I have to make a promise to myself, i need to make a blogging routine or i just have to make it colorful. Not for my alleged readers but for me! Its not about their life anyways its for me,me and me. Narcissistic? Not really just being true.

:))

cool change

Its been years since i last set foot in this foreign land.aha! But now its safe to say that im back, and i'll stay for a WHILE.. Duration=Uncertain. haha!

I dont know what im supposed to do but everything about it entails a dose of sacrifice. I am definitely missing pinas, but being homesick is part of the whole going away package. All I have to do is suck it up and start living life here. Hard is just an understatement but i can do it.

A definite advantage is that i am now living in the US with my parents.There are more job oppurtunities here. If im lucky,i get to snag a real hot american dude with blue eyes! hahah.
Love it.